Spin Out

My brother asked me to do a painting (from my view)
of what he was like on drugs.
So here is my steps (not for the faint at heart)

This picture was not easy for me to do. I closed alot of this up a long time
ago. I saw and heard so much growing up.

First thing i see about drug addicts. Yes they chose to be on drugs but most
of the time its to hide something weather it be pain or the past. Things they
have done or been through that they don't want to remember.

But remember this, it doesn't make them bad people. Bad choices yes, but not bad
people. There lives from the first try are ruled by those drugs. They need
it and crave. And when they try to come off it, they have not only what they
were trying to hide from the first place come back but everything they have done
since then come to a realization to. So why get off the drugs? when it only
hurts and is painful. Its so much easier to hide, even though it only causes them
more problems then its worth. But they don't see it that way.

My painting shows a spin out. You hide yourself away in your own little world
or building as i tried to portray. In a dark room where you feel safe and hidden away
from the eyes that might see. The people they most feel guilty for disappointing
is there family. So they hide, they hide in anyway they can.

He feels pain.
Lets numb it up.
Ecstasy and Pleasure.
Sigh relief.
spin spin spin.

Out of control again.
Stink of drug in the air.
To late to make the amends.
It makes the world fair.
spin spin spin.

Hide and seek.
In my dark little room.
Not gonna take a peek.
In case true feelings begin to bloom.
spin spin spin.

I love you brother and i am glad to see that you are trying so hard to make things right.
I hope that you find that path and hold on tight. If not remember i know where
you live and i will start calling again just to remind you i love you.
love always me